[ Carter had called it dumb luck, and she's — not wrong. Chance plays a role in all things. They were fortunate, as Markus puts it. A series of astonishing factors, including their unnatural abilities, saved them by the skin of their teeth.
He wants to ask does it matter? but he's not that obtuse (and, crucially, neither is Markus). ]
Not exactly, no. [ A flicker of his gaze to Markus and then downward, implicitly acknowledging his prior dodge. He lets that hang between him, as if he won't be answering anytime soon, and for someone else, he might not. Fitz could spend hours feigning interest in the sheets over Markus, the far-off wall, the dirty floor, tracing invisible lines in the hopes distancing himself from the topic. ]
Uneasy. [ said without looking up. It's brittle. ] Leading made — it makes me feel uneasy.
[ Fitz leads when there's no one else to do it, when he perceives he's the only one willing to make a tough call (whether or not that perception proves correct). Even without all the muck in his head, he's not a leader; he's a right-hand man. ]
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He wants to ask does it matter? but he's not that obtuse (and, crucially, neither is Markus). ]
Not exactly, no. [ A flicker of his gaze to Markus and then downward, implicitly acknowledging his prior dodge. He lets that hang between him, as if he won't be answering anytime soon, and for someone else, he might not. Fitz could spend hours feigning interest in the sheets over Markus, the far-off wall, the dirty floor, tracing invisible lines in the hopes distancing himself from the topic. ]
Uneasy. [ said without looking up. It's brittle. ] Leading made — it makes me feel uneasy.
[ Fitz leads when there's no one else to do it, when he perceives he's the only one willing to make a tough call (whether or not that perception proves correct). Even without all the muck in his head, he's not a leader; he's a right-hand man. ]