[ the short answer is that yes, it bothers him. it's more personal than Fitz could imagine. Loki had done a lot of things to keep his new reputation, including the erasure of certain crimes that were recorded in Asgard's tomes, loosening those damning bonds of expectation and allow him room to breathe, to change.
that hadn't turned out so well. instead, he had recklessly left gaps where there should have been words, and an old Loki from the future, one already damned, had written other things in their place. ]
It disturbs me. [ but maybe not for the reason that Fitz thinks. ] Yet I guarantee my past-life counterpart has done far worse. But I am who I am- I am Loki. I don't want to and can't be anyone else but Loki. That Loki is Loki as well.
It can't be avoided in this situation, but perhaps things can change.
[ Fitz finds himself glad he kept this as a text exchange, anticipating his biased investment in the topic (well, regarding Coulson; he hadn't thought to worry about projecting on Loki). Wouldn't want his emotions playing across his face or exposed by a brush of skin, in this moment, regardless.
His calm is always edged with control. ]
I hope you're right.
[ If this were five years ago, he'd say they can without hesitation and with all the warmth of someone who refused to believe the HYDRA threat was beside him the whole damn time — or that it might come from inside himself, one day. Now, he thinks some things are inevitable. ]
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that hadn't turned out so well. instead, he had recklessly left gaps where there should have been words, and an old Loki from the future, one already damned, had written other things in their place. ]
It disturbs me. [ but maybe not for the reason that Fitz thinks. ] Yet I guarantee my past-life counterpart has done far worse.
But I am who I am- I am Loki. I don't want to and can't be anyone else but Loki.
That Loki is Loki as well.
It can't be avoided in this situation, but perhaps things can change.
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His calm is always edged with control. ]
I hope you're right.
[ If this were five years ago, he'd say they can without hesitation and with all the warmth of someone who refused to believe the HYDRA threat was beside him the whole damn time — or that it might come from inside himself, one day. Now, he thinks some things are inevitable. ]
You know where to find me, Loki.